So, you saw my last post. You wondered what on earth I could be doing to myself that I wouldn't look the same anymore. I let you stew for 3 days because I have been too busy to blog. Today, I fess up to what I have done. But first...some blah blah blah babble from me :)
Lately, I have been feeling the need for some big changes in my life. More exercise, less junk food, eating more local fruits and veggies (hopefully including the ones we are growing in our garden!), more family time, more creative time, more connecting with my sweet husband, and in general, a more earth conscious, less consumeristic (yup, I made that one up) lifestyle. Its important to both Matthew and I, we feel like its the direction we should have been heading in all along, we just got sidetracked and have been stuck in "just getting by" mode since little Row was born. It could just be an "OMG we are going to be 30 this year" kind of thing too ;)
Either way, we feel ready and eager to embrace some new changes, which started me thinking. I wanted to make another big change, one that would not only be apparent outside, but would also facilliate some pretty big ones on the inside. I watched American Idol. I fell in hair love with Jason Castro's dreadlocks. I remembered how much I liked having them when I was 16. I thought about how much I liked them on other people. I thought, and I thought. Maybe I am to old for this kind of change. Maybe its not ME anymore. Maybe people will think I am weird, and that I look funny. Maybe....but maybe its time that none of that matters anymore. Most of my life I have been worried about how people perceive me, what they think of me, if they like me or not....its exhausting. For me, the decision to have my hair put into dreadlocks again is almost more about the inside than the outside. And boy oh boy...its been a trip already and its only been 4 days. Its HARD to embrace this change. Its hard to not worry that I look dumb, or that people think I am weird. It really is an exercise in learning to be comfortable with yourself, and not worry or think or care about what anyone else is thinking about you. I cried when I got home after having them done. I felt weird going to see my family for a BBQ that afternoon, and I continue to struggle with it every time I look in the mirror. I expect that I will for a while, at least until they get out of the awkward phase (that should last only about 2 months :/ ) But I am going to hang in there, because I really feel that someday, hopefully soon, I will wake up and realize - HEY! I love my hair...why didnt I do this sooner?
So...the pictures you have been waiting for!! This is right after I got home from having them done. See how happy I look? hahaha. I was so not loving it right then:
Now, since its been a few days, they are WAAAAY frizzed out, which I am really struggling with. Be gone frizzies! But really, who else can wear their hair like this:
Or this?
HAHAHAHA! No, I wont really go out in public like that. It was just for fun...I have been pulling them back into a pokey ponytail though:
And bought some headbands, and am working on making some more and some wraps, so I can wear it down like this:
Pretty trippy huh? Your comments are welcome....I am looking forward to this crazy journey :)
Lately, I have been feeling the need for some big changes in my life. More exercise, less junk food, eating more local fruits and veggies (hopefully including the ones we are growing in our garden!), more family time, more creative time, more connecting with my sweet husband, and in general, a more earth conscious, less consumeristic (yup, I made that one up) lifestyle. Its important to both Matthew and I, we feel like its the direction we should have been heading in all along, we just got sidetracked and have been stuck in "just getting by" mode since little Row was born. It could just be an "OMG we are going to be 30 this year" kind of thing too ;)
Either way, we feel ready and eager to embrace some new changes, which started me thinking. I wanted to make another big change, one that would not only be apparent outside, but would also facilliate some pretty big ones on the inside. I watched American Idol. I fell in hair love with Jason Castro's dreadlocks. I remembered how much I liked having them when I was 16. I thought about how much I liked them on other people. I thought, and I thought. Maybe I am to old for this kind of change. Maybe its not ME anymore. Maybe people will think I am weird, and that I look funny. Maybe....but maybe its time that none of that matters anymore. Most of my life I have been worried about how people perceive me, what they think of me, if they like me or not....its exhausting. For me, the decision to have my hair put into dreadlocks again is almost more about the inside than the outside. And boy oh boy...its been a trip already and its only been 4 days. Its HARD to embrace this change. Its hard to not worry that I look dumb, or that people think I am weird. It really is an exercise in learning to be comfortable with yourself, and not worry or think or care about what anyone else is thinking about you. I cried when I got home after having them done. I felt weird going to see my family for a BBQ that afternoon, and I continue to struggle with it every time I look in the mirror. I expect that I will for a while, at least until they get out of the awkward phase (that should last only about 2 months :/ ) But I am going to hang in there, because I really feel that someday, hopefully soon, I will wake up and realize - HEY! I love my hair...why didnt I do this sooner?
So...the pictures you have been waiting for!! This is right after I got home from having them done. See how happy I look? hahaha. I was so not loving it right then:
Now, since its been a few days, they are WAAAAY frizzed out, which I am really struggling with. Be gone frizzies! But really, who else can wear their hair like this:
Or this?
HAHAHAHA! No, I wont really go out in public like that. It was just for fun...I have been pulling them back into a pokey ponytail though:
And bought some headbands, and am working on making some more and some wraps, so I can wear it down like this:
Pretty trippy huh? Your comments are welcome....I am looking forward to this crazy journey :)