I've been having a pretty tough time the last couple weeks. I really miss Matthew - he has been gone almost a month now and it is *so* hard at home without him. Its hard on a practical level - because I am the only one to take care of the kids, do the laundry, cook, clean and everything else that keeping a family and household running smoothly entails. But its hard emotionally too - he is my best friend, and I miss talking to him in person, snuggling on the couch watching movies, and just having him around the house. It's lonely being the only adult in the house, and that part just gets harder and harder the longer he is away. Its also been a big adjustment to be working again, even though its just a couple hours a morning. I really enjoy being around the horses, but its just one more thing to juggle in an already full schedule.
But as hard as it is, we are all making it work. The house is clean, I get dinner on the table each night, the kids are adjusting as well as they can. Matthew gets to come home every two weeks and we absolutely cherish that time together. I also have a couple good friends who are doing everything they can to support us, and I appreciate them being there for my family so much. I haven't wanted to ask for help, but I finally broke down and told Tanya the other day that I was having a hard time and feeling really lonely. She came over the next night and brought a few things to cheer me up:
Ahhhh, just what I needed. The company of a good friend, a couple drinks and some beautiful flowers to remind me that we have friends that love and support our family when we need it most. Things may be challenging for me right now, but with such amazing friends by my side, I know that I am going to get through the next two months just fine. I am so blessed!
But as hard as it is, we are all making it work. The house is clean, I get dinner on the table each night, the kids are adjusting as well as they can. Matthew gets to come home every two weeks and we absolutely cherish that time together. I also have a couple good friends who are doing everything they can to support us, and I appreciate them being there for my family so much. I haven't wanted to ask for help, but I finally broke down and told Tanya the other day that I was having a hard time and feeling really lonely. She came over the next night and brought a few things to cheer me up:
Ahhhh, just what I needed. The company of a good friend, a couple drinks and some beautiful flowers to remind me that we have friends that love and support our family when we need it most. Things may be challenging for me right now, but with such amazing friends by my side, I know that I am going to get through the next two months just fine. I am so blessed!